I am almost rethinking, for simple fear, my "coming soon." i jumped on this morning in vigor, and just in this moment i am rethinking.. here is where i take the leap - this is where i take dreaming to doing ~ and in this ~ action to my faith. faith is a verb.
i remember the moment i was exposed and educated, my life has never been the same. i went from feeling lost in God's Will to part of His Will. in application: instead of my response being stagnancy and reactivity to "i have faith that God is going to get me through this" ~ i actively seek and go beyond the point in which i announced the event. if i claim God is working in my life and i have "faith" in what the results will be - I must discern from where do I leap - all the while ~ key word being leap.
i'm not sure where my announcement will take this community. in fact - what community? i literally get on this blog-site and write to an audience of two (me & my Lord).
when i say - this process will be a test of my faith - it is a test of my steadfastness, continuing past the results i am seeing. more clear - if there are no results, meaning no community is formed in 2011. will i still be faithful to the commitment i feel my inner-spirit is prompting me to make?
at what point would it be acceptable for me to decide blogging and creating challenges once a week is without effect. how do we know the effect of our action .. it is God's Alpha & Omega that i must cling too. Meaning - if no one else finds and commits to one or more challenges, i'll be challenging me because it is about my commitment to this process. i will be faithful.
when i dream of a tree, it is my faith that pursues the seed, and then the planting and the watering.
when i dream of a community of people seeking authenticity and compassion, it is my faith that pursues this challenge, and then the writing and perseverance.
That said ~ announcing (to myself and the community to come)
52 Monday's of:
Compassion Challenge 2011
As written in a previous blog entry, it will be the intention of this challenge to spur on personal identity development. If I can know myself better I can then be better to others, and being better to others builds a better community ~ Amen?
Lord God - in the silence i felt my heart jump and carried by the racing of my thoughts, guard me from my blindness. i am stepping into fear and vulnerability, a place i will come to know You more. it is in You that i will hide, for in my flailings there is something You can create for Your Good ~ all my heart, j.